Lunchie time

Clock reads 12:37pm now.. Ok.. Let's start with my uncle.. Slipped into a coma since sunday morning, i'm destined to losing him already.. I wish i had the courage to throw my arms around him and hug him thight, like the last time i did weeks ago when he was resting at home.. This time round, with so many relatives around, i lack the courage.. I realized he's my favourite uncle, and yes all formal fond memories came drifting back to me vividly.. Why do human beings tends to be at the blink of losing something then we start to treasure or know its importance?

I lack the courage due to, as we age we tends to hide our inner feelings.. Hence i believe, adolesence phrase is the time when we do/say/express what we feel truefully.. For we upheld the innocence back then.. On sunday, i stood in front of him and wisphered to myself, "Uncle, thank you for everything.. I will miss you.." I dont need anyone to know how i feel, i dont need the attention too.. This time round, i know i wouldn't tear.. I'm numb suddenly.. Deaths and disappointments are all part of life.. Life's too tragic to be sentimental i thought nowadays..

I read through some of my previous posts, and i realized time really flies.. I deleted my friendster for a start.. Maybe i should start to delete other means of contacts slowly.. Maybe the unworthy being disappear from within, and yes it's refering to me..

To all peeps, a poem wrote by me at this impluse:~

I would really like to carry on wandering,
First i need to cut off all links..
Fulfillment comes with regrets,
You have to take the good with the bad..
Why happy moments don't last,
Yet sad times does..
That explains the bad thinkings in us..