What to do!? Who can advise me?!

Ok.. Now before everything.. It's three half chances decent choice, with one optional evil one.. To loan from spinster cousin, loan from eldest brother, loan out from my policies.. Or rob a bank.. Cousin would have been the easiest way out, but that signifies no failure.. Brother wise, i don't think he would be willing to loan me that much, for he would need it for his own use or business.. Loanin out from my policies would have waste lots of interest, intended for profit rather than to be of negative.. Robbing a bank.. Great idea.. Make or break everything, but consider i make away with like only a few hundred bucks, maybe with abit of luck a few k's.. I would have to resign my fate then..

Yes.. I can't blame them for not bringing me out into this world with a silver spoon in my mouth.. I had enough of everything.. I have to keep on fighting for my rights, my life.. It's hard, but not impossible to achieve.. Crossing my fingers, biting my lips, i hold on.. Maybe adding to that, crossing my legs does help a little?

Actually read or discussed with friends about this some time back.. At least four to five years maybe, that for those who had it easy(riches) usually end up a pauper, and those who work their way out of poverty will have eventual success and last(for they treasure).. A chinese saying, "Jia chan bu guo san dai", loosely translated as "Inheritance don't last more than three generation".. I can't really fully agree, for i think the upbringing and all does affects a little.. I'm at least glad i learn and experience life in one of the hardest way. Being a 'pai jia zi', is usually a cocky and proud one, and friends might be of 'jiu rou peng you'.. Once you can no longer give gains, you're left alone.. Now, from there you experienced life at the best possible way, for a start only though.. So, whenever possible, please treat the current situation the best already, because things might have been worse.. Read this..

There were two fairies and they're traveling down south from Johor, to Sentosa for a break.. *Bear in mind, during holiday no abuse of fairy power* Echoed though their minds.. They were tired and they asked to stay overnight at a nearby house along Bukit Timah Road.. As you know all the houses here are high end banglows with easily over one hectare of land each.. They were reluctantly accepted for the night, and was ushered into a dirty and filthy room at the basement by the snobby owner..

The younger fairy of the two, named chirpy was very unhappy about this treatment for he's sure there have to be better rooms than this.. They slept, anyway.. Next morning, as Chirpy was waking up, he noticed the other fairy, Wisey was filling up an opening at the corner of the room.. Thinking Wisey is kind by nature, though very much he was still disturbed with the hospitality the host gave, he didnt question him..

Another day gone by in a twinkle of eyes, and.. They ended up at Pulau Ubin.. Some senile old man told that that's the way to sentosa island.. Or maybe.. Just an island, the uncle might heard.. They had to stay over night for there's no more ferry back.. Tired and bushed, they approached somewhat like a farm house.. It was shabby and dirty, but the farmer and his wife was very friendly and nice, even offered them some refreshments.. They offered their only bed to the faires too, who duly refused at all cost..

All were well till.. "Kru-ku-kuuu"!! As the cock broke the silence of the day, Chirpy woke up seeing the famer and his wife weeping, over the dead cow who work the field for them.. Wisey was wearing a mild smile looking at them.. Chirpy could no longer stand all these and confronted Wisey, the older fairy.. "How could yuo allow this to happen? You helped that rich miser back in Bukit Timah fill his broken wall, yet allow this good man and wife here lose their beloved cow!" Wisey wasnt smiling now, he said to Chirpy, "Why do you have to take things on the front, always? I filled that wall because it had hidden treasure in it, and i wouldnt want that miser to get richer still.. And, a henchman of Lucifer came yesterday.. Wanted to take the wife, but i made him took the poor cow instead.. Got it son?"

Often when things happened, we either blame ourselves, point fingers at people or the situation.. We often don't look at the larger picture, that things could be worse.. Everything happen for a cause, that's what i believe at least.. It might be "A blessing in disguise", just like losing the cow for the farmer's wife.. And yes, we'll never know till the truth is told.. When will the mystery be solved? Wait for the fairies or deities to tell you or you work for it deservely, it's your choice, your pick.. *grins*