Damn it!! BLOGSPOT!!

I updated a super duper long entry yesterday with so..so.. Interesting topic and guess what? No prize for guessing right, but you won a ticket to swear at this service provider. It turn out blank!! This ain't the 1st time and I guess won't be the last either, God damn it! Even the internet lets you down, what's more can you expect from human beings!? Grrr..

I found writing is really therapeutic. Words are so expressive, it enables you to express your thought and your deepest desires in a healthy manner. Maybe I'm used to being a quiet person most of the times, words are best to express or even simmer down my anger over particular things also. I used to abhor reading, especially English, but somehow I began to read since I-don't-know when. Haha.. I tried to find whatever kind of book that interest or intrigue me to read. It grows from there and thank god I can even fake an accent with a foreigner. Once in a blue moon I find a word that can totally describe certain things I've yearn to express. It felt good, you know. Fell in love with writing poems to express myself, my thinking too.

Did this test some time ago, rather true it seems to me.

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

The topic I posted yesterday and got 'vanished' is too long for me to repeat, for I put about 2 hours plus writing it! It's about human relationships and some other which I was so PROUD of, but it seems unfated to be shared. Anyway just for you peeps' info, after 'conquering' Da Vinci, I'm onto 'Men are clams, women are crowbars'. I thought the author got the title wrong at first if you guys were thinking alike me, but after reading the brief intro on what the books about, I bought it without second thought. And sure did the author David Clarke got it all positive, without any lust being discussed-so far, for I'm only 3/8 done with the book.

*Scratching head* Nowadays I'm thinking too much, sometimes like a simple phrasing of sentence, I can be like already thought of 2 or 3 possible phrasing ways. Somehow am glad when I believe the way I phrase it is different from most of the people, actually I got it through the English.
Example:
I'm no longer going for swimming lessons later(Norm)
I'm going for swimming lessons no longer later(English) or
Later I'm going swimming lessons no longer
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Whose right, whose wrong? I think it doesn't matter as long as I like the sentence, the phrasing. It's like twisting your mind to challedge wisdom. No one will even beat it, yet one enjoy doing it. Ha! But it really does make me feel good sometimes, and anyway, a weekly affair with my blog makes sure I don't add in unnecessary. Sometimes what I really want to write, yet paranoid about people learning about it makes me think what's a blog for. A mere online form of organizer without all the slots for you to fill in, or something people have, I want to have too. I must admit I don't put my truest thoughts here, but but mere ok-to-share infomations and thoughts which i thought would be interesting to discuss about. Life's a big joke, topping off with endless contradiction yah? Now, that's where the beauty come from I guess.

P.S. My heartfelt gratitude to those who reads my blog regularly, take care, peace out.